Ahhhhh….time flies. From May 2016. And here we are, another school year over….
Another school year to an end. I mean seriously, didn’t it just begin?
From soccer to basketball, orchestra and art,
I’m pretty sure we just said start.
This year has flown by in ways more than one,
I just hope in some way they had some fun.
As I close my eyes and think about the memories made,
I mean what do I remember?
Did I make the grade?
Was I supportive?
Did I nag?
Did I forget to put the juicee in your lunch bag?
Did I kiss them goodbye everyday?
Did I tell them I love them as they went on their way?
Did I hold their hands long enough that they felt it?
Did I always encourage rather than quit?
Did I push? 
Did I pull?
Did I love them enough?
Did I?
Did I?
Oh, this is tough.
The trips to infinity and beyond,
The homework,
The laughs,
The frustration, 
The tears,
The wisdom beyond their years.
This is what we live for, 
These hearts so pure,
These hearts so trusting, 
These hearts so true,
These hearts wide open,
These hearts are growing into their own,
These hearts have made me love them all the way to the bone,
As I watched them grow all year long,
It’s hard not to remember what went wrong,
From boo boos to broken hearts,
From bruised egos to fights,
From a momma’s many sleepless nights,
From straight a’s to not so much,
From a hairdo I couldn’t touch,
From trying to find the good in the bad,
From mad to glad to sad,
From pouting because the shoes cost too much,
To shouting over who’s the best in the clutch?
From disappointment to disaster,
To the best gift ever made of plaster,
To the countless drawings of your not sure what,
To bring stuck in a rut,
To homework with check marks, 
To Baggie books to read,
To praying to God you just planted a seed, 
To wishing them well,
To telling them no,
To hugging them tight, 
To letting them go,
To holding them till the hurt subsides,
To pushing them away as you cried,
To sitting at the table sobbing in your own arms,
To praying for protection from all kinds of harm,
To gentle kisses and exhausted good nights,
I think we can rest we did something right. 
We tried.
We cared.
We fought.
We shared. 
We hurt. 
We laughed.
We fell. 
We got up.
We loved.
We laughed.
We put together.
We fell apart.
But we did it with all of our heart.
We love you more than you can ever imagine,
Forgive us for our lack of perfection,
Forgive us for being that mom in the crowd,
Forgive us for giggling ever so loud,
Forgive us for wearing our hearts on our sleeves,
Forgive us for our many, many pet peeves,
Forgive us for being late,
Forgive us for not coming,
Forgive us for trying to be in more places than one,
Over Scheduling,
And forgetting to just have fun,
Forgive us for the meeting we forgot,
The sock we misplaced,
Or the burnt food in the pot.
I promise you I tried.
I promise you I cared.
I promise you I will love you more than you’ve ever been dared. 
I promise you your hugs are like gold to me,
I promise you there’s way more love than you’ll ever see,
I promise you my heart overflows when you just smile,
I promise you’ve made my life completely worthwhile,
I promise I pray for you more than you know,
I promise I’m working on letting you go,
I promise to love you as you become your own,
I promise I love you even if you feel alone,
I promise…
I promise…
I promise to you,
While I’m no where near perfect,
My love is perfectly true.
For you, 
My children,
I try with all my heart,
Somedays I don’t know where to start,
Somedays it’s all I got,
Somedays it’s all tipsy turvy,
Somedays it’s not,
But know that I as finish each day when I finally hit the bed,
Full of the day’s memories dancing through my head,
I’m praying for more patience I’ll need for tomorrow,
More love, 
More kindness,
More mercy and grace,
More thankfulness, 
More truth,
More passion,
More of your embrace.
Thank you for being the child you are.
Thank you for your spirit, 
Thank you for your light,
Thank you for reminding me to fight,
Thank you for inspiring me to be better,
Thank you so much for reading this letter.
Know I’m not always good at saying things right,
But if you know anything,
Know that I love you.  
I love you with all of my might❤️